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I LOVE KYLE SO FREAKING MUCH! Like THIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIS MUCH! Well, more than that, haha.

Reasons why:
- the ways he kisses
- he practically swallows me up in his hugs
- he smells great
- he'll spontaneously be affectionate with me
- when we go out, he's always got an arm around my shoulder or my waist, or just holding my
hand
- he doesn't mind going to the mall with me knowing how long I take
- he randomly shows up in my English and sometimes Journalism classes
- his big, soft bed with fluffy pillows and crispy sheets
- he always cleans his room and his bathroom so it never feels and looks disgusting like
other guys' bathrooms
- he won't take down the Christmas tree that we picked out and decorated in his room
- he watches Supernatural episodes (new and reruns) with me and even though if I cry, he
teases and laughs at me, he always gives me a kiss after
- he takes good care of me in practically any situation

What sparked this craziness?

Today when I went to his house, I walked into his bathroom and there was an extra toothbrush. It was mine.

I FELT MY FIRST EARTHQUAKE!!! And I must say it was pretty cool. 3.7 on the Richter scale at 10:49pm.

I mean there I was, sitting in my squeaky chair watching Ocean's Eleven when I felt the ground beneath me shake for about three seconds. First it was What the hell was that? Did something huge drop? But there was no sound of impact, sooo since I'm in California, there really is only one other option. Then comes my dad, all wide-eyed and semi-freaked out yet in a sort of awe wondering what happened. Funny enough, not 5 minutes later, he goes back to his room and continues working, and everything goes back to normal. Nothing big shook, the TV image didn't fizzle...dare I say it was kinda anti-climactic? And apparently, there was an earthquake on the same faultline on Wednesday! 3.7 too! I sure didn't feel that one...

But we're in for a bigger earthquake soon. As quoted from many news sources, "...geologists believe (the Hayward Fault) is due for a large quake in the potentially lethal 6.7 to 7.0 range." Kudos for us. I'm so excited yet so completely terrified...for my TV. Since Concord, where I live, isn't directly on the Hayward Fault, I hope the quake won't be as strong, I mean, what if it takes out my TV? And my computer? And what about the stuff in my room? It sure is messy enough. Huh...I wonder if my last year in California will be the last year of my young life? Okay that was such bad luck...I think I just jinxed myself.

Crap

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HAPPY HOLIDAYS! :)

SO TIRED! If I put my head down right now I'd fall asleep. This morning I took my ACTs from 8am to friggin 12:45pm! With only like, a 15 minute break. It was insane. It was pretty easy though...just a lot of questions, and I didn't finish a bit of them since I was tired...and slow. Kablooey.

Then afterwards me and Kyle went to school to meet up with Ms. Spaulding a.k.a. "awesomest chica eva". And picked up Riley, one of the most adorable puppies EVER! Small, light brown, and cute with short little legs. *teehee* And also her daughter's Christmas present (which is why she needs to keep him out of the house cause it's from Santa).

But tschea then we went Christmas tree shopping!!!! Oh my goodness it was so fun! For two weeks I've been seeing Christmas trees tied down on the roof of cars all around and I've wanted one so bad! But cause my place is too small, Kyle offered to put one in his room! And since I spend half of my time at his place anyway....so yeah. HAH!

Anywho. We went to a few places and found the perfect tree after a mere three hours! Then I had to go home, then go out to eat dinner, and went home again, then Kyle came to pick me up so we could set up the tree! And I just came back like, five minutes ago and the tree looks really pretty! Well...minus the lights and decorations? It still looked beautiful. Haha. And since it's real, the pine smell has now merged with Kyle's room. :D

Decorations go up tomorrow morning! Yeyyyyy!!!! THE CHRISTMAS SEASON IS HERE!!!!!!

Totally psyched.

Aren't you?

:D

Kinda random, just needed a mini outlet.

Today, my english teacher gave us an assignment telling us to write about someone who has died and how important they were in our lives. Now my question is, since when did school become so damn morbid? Granted, it's high school, but still. It's never been an assignment. And this is some pretty personal shit.

Anyway, I'm just so frustrated because I try and try to think of someone else, anyone else, but when thinking about death, Dean is the only person who comes to mind who was actually IMPORTANT to me. But I really do NOT want to write about Dean. I mean, come ON! I just don't talk about death! Or anything else close to it. Not when it's personal. I try my damndest not to think about it and avoid talking about it and if that makes me closed off and hard to connect with? So be it. Find some other way.

So to even try to express it in words?

Torture.

I really don't like thinking about this, but I have and now it's put me in a 'mood'.

Son of a bitch.







P.S. I'm 90% sure I'm going to regret posting this once I'm out of this funk.

okay crap. this just sucks. lost our polo game again. i forsee a lot more long and disgustingly intense practices with a screaming coach. kill me now.

this school year, i think i signed up to do a lot more than i bargained for.

List:
-being an editor of the school paper
-water polo practices and games
-school and school work
-volunteer work
-TV
-going online hopefully once a day
-drama club
-extra studying
-SAT prep classs and that homework
-keeping in touch and hanging out with friends
-Kyle.

i'm sick too so everything is just peachy....and faint. maybe i'll just give up the last two, lol. oh wait, kyle's recording my CSI episodes this year....okay fine, he shall be acknowledged each time i give him a new tape.

so....screwed or not? how am i supposed to balance everything?! this is insane. i'm already sleep deprived, i'm afraid coffee doesn't do as much good as it used to, and i have no time managing or organizational skills! really. even though i love being the mutant chinese chick, it really sucks sometimes cause of the not being good at math or anything else thing.

haven't even been able to go to the beach lately! SACRILEGE! yeah i don't really know what that means but that's okay.

my face is pale.

damn cold.

This is a random entry, just so you know, so it's pretty much me ranting excitedly for about a few random paragraphs and that's it...just to get it outta me so i can sleep.

first, PRISON BREAK IS COMING BACK! WHOO! YES! TONIGHT AT 8PM! come on jacky, i know you're cheering too. WENTWORTH MILLER! *squeals* plenty o' hotness. too bad he's also plenty o' serious. i mean come on, where is your sense of humor, oh sweet adorable one?

second, the Seattle Seahawks totally kicked the Indeanopolis Colts' big fat butts in the pre-season game! 30-17! WHOO! YEAH! GO MATT HASSELBECK(Seahawks QB)! I LOVE YOU! for some strange reason i am attracted to the Seahawks and Hasselbeck, which is even stranger cause he's not even hot! Crazy, eh? Weeeeeird obsessions. I mean really, at one point i was thinking about gettin a tattoo of the number 8.

and lastly, Teen Choice Awards were on this...well, last night. And i was extremely elated cause JENSEN ACKLES AND JARED PADALECKI WERE THERE! both talked a bit too! wheeee! i literally jumped out of my chair pointing at the screen screaming. really. i don't think i'm all there anymore. Jared looked...still adorable, but his hair....he's really gotta fix it again. This guy really needs a new hair stylist...or go to one. But whatever, still sexy. but Jensen.....ooooooohhhh jenny. made me scream louder and higher than marlon wayans! and i gotta tell ya, marlon wayans was really screaming like a prebuscent little boy added with an abnormally high voice. anyways, i'm trying desperately to contain myself here once again, but man oh man, he looked so. hot. he is like, (if you watch grey's anatomy you'll know what i mean) McSteamy, McDreamy, McSexy, and Mcwhatever all combined into one super sexy god-like creature. I mean really, can you find anyone more beautiful and gorgeous than Jensen? No you can't.

OH YEAH! and i am ESPECIALLY excited for the Supernatural DVD coming out Sept.5!!!! i know i know, i think i need help too. *smiles brilliantly with the shining sparkly 'ding' on my teeth*

i believe i'm done. have fun whatever y'all are doin!

LOVIES! :D

It's like a chain!

How "guy like" are you?

[x] you own a jersey
[ ] you like being sweaty
[x] you hate pink
[x] you love hoodies and jeans
[x] pranks are fun
[x] dogs are better than cats
[x not seriously hurt though] its funny when people get hurt
Total : 6

[x] shopping is torture
[ ] pulling heads off dolls isnt creepy
[x not consciously] you dont cry
[x] sad movies suck
[ ] girl drama is stupid
[ ] painting your nails is weird/stupid
[ ] you own an xbox
[ ] you own a gamecube
[x] at some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter
[ ] you own a psp
Total : 4

[x] you used to be obsessed with power rangers
[x sometimes] you watch sports center
[x FOOTBALL, HOCKEY sometimes, sometimes basketball] sports on tv are awesome
[x with action not horror] gorey movies are the best!
[x] you arent scared of anything (or thats what you tell people)
[x hey, i'm not the only girl] you take part in "male bonding"
[ ] you only go to your dad for advice
[ ] you own like a trillion baseball caps
[x] you aren't sensitive
[x] no pain no gain
Total : 8

[x] you like going to football games
[ ] spiders and bugs are cool
[ ] you like to freak out your sister or brother
[x] you used to or do collect basketball cards
[ ] baggy pants are cool
[ ] you get sports illustrated/other sports magazine
[x] fire is cool
[x] you don't babysit
[x sometimes] you're immature
Total: 5

[ ] its kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people
[x] black red or blue are your favorite color(s)
[x most of them really are] romantic comedies are boring
[x after i reached my normal weight...no] you dont care about watching your weight
[x] you hate dressing up
[x i don't care about dressing it up, that's for sure] you dont care about your hair
[x] you love to go crazy and not care what people think
[x] your'e the one who asks a guy/girl out not the other way around
[x] climbing is fun
[x]contact sports like football are fun
Total: 9

32/40 ...maybe I was a man in another life

So the weekend trip in San Gabriel has officially ended and I am officially not going to summer school since I just missed the first day...great. Surprisingly and yet not so surprisingly, I'm not regretful...at all. What I am regretful about however, is being stuck here since Kyle's truck's tire has conveniently popped and flattened (we probably ran over something with the way Kyle was weaving from one lane to the other) and lo and behold! No spare tires...great.

So here we are, waiting for a tow truck a few ways from Greenfield and our first destination before getting home, the Big Sur. Yet another one of Kyle's great ideas. The Big Sur is apparently some place with cliffs and smaller beaches and it is also apparently a great place to watch the sunset. But I guess it would've happened eventually and at least now we can enjoy the oceanic scenery while I listen to Kyle cussing to his brother for encouraging him NOT to bring an extra tire. Of course, it's just brotherly banter...I hope.

Man, that tow truck is taking an awful long time...I mean it's already been like, half an hour...or it will be...soon. Okay all right I just hate it that I'm one of those people I usually laugh at when I'm driving past with broken-down cars or what not at the side of the road.

Whatever. So San Gabriel was actually really fun and the time on the road so far has also been surprisingly pleasant. Kyle and i haven't had any bad arguments so far and everything's just swell...except for the fact that I'm getting really bored with this Iron Butterfly 'In a Gadda Da Vida' song cause it's been playing for like the past 10 mintues and it's still not ended! i mean, i know it's long but this is just ridiculous...now it's just noise and drums.

Anyway what was I saying? Oh right! San Gabriel! Two thumbs up to Gramma and Grampa Haven's cook by the way, like, really, i don't think i've ever eaten any type of chicken that would give me an orgasm! LOL! Man i'm kinda cold now.

Anywho, nothing special or overly amusing happened except for the fact that we got flipped off while driving a few times and of course, Kyle always returned the favor. aaaand....hmmmmm....ooh! I popped off one of my lens from my glasses so i've had to buy and wear contacts leading to me wearing the dorkiest sunglasses EVER! Picture:




Yeah like that but bigger and the lenses are dark purple...hah! DORKIEST SUNGLASSES EVER! and i'm still wearing them, lol. So it totally took me like, 15 minutes to just find the picture and figure out how to insert it when it was in my face all this time! geez...

Thank goodness Blue Oyster Cult is on his iPod now *whew*. Other than getting some seriously watery and bloodshot eyes, everything is just peachy. Tow truck is STILL not here and now Kyle's bugging me about leaving him with nothing to do. He sooo wouldn't be able to live alone....he'd probably die of boredom....or annoying himself. Hah!

LOVE YOU ALL!

...I'm really hungry.

Okay, so maybe it's not as much the wizard but more like Kyle's relatives...but then again, both are pretty intimidating. If you're wondering, I'm at San Gabriel right now which is about maybe half an hour away from Los Angeles, in Kyle's grandparents' (Gramma and Grampa Havens) big house, on Kyle's laptop, since I am one of the few poor kids in his circle of friends without a laptop. Sad, really. I'm also half-watching, in great amusement, as the Great Kyle Havens himself attempts to change a faulty lightbulb. Well okay, I'll give him credit...three lightbulbs. Nevertheless, it is something I recommend all of you watching at least once in your life.

Anyhow, so San Gabriel. It's actually really nice and pretty here. A rather small town, but surprisingly, there are, I'm 98.9% sure, more Asians here than Whites. I mean, there's a Chinese plaza and everything! The scenery here is amazing too! The streets are nicely paved, and from what I’ve seen, most of the lawns are cut, and there are a lot of nice houses here. Like, seriously.

***5 hours later***

Obviously, some time has passed since I started this entry, but Kyle almost fell of the chair he was standing on, then he got baby-ish, and I ended up having to hold the chair while he changed the lightbulbs, then me and Kyle decided to get some dinner at that Chinese plaza. The name escapes me for the moment, but next time I pass there, I’ll be sure to write it down.

So I guess Chinese girls don’t exactly go out with a lot of white guys in that area cause there was some serious staring going on at that plaza directed at us by yours truly, some other kids, and older Chinese couples, but mostly elderly people whose frowns seemed to deepen each time I spoke English. Maybe I was just swimming in my usual paranoia, but maybe I wasn’t.

So Gramma and Grampa Havens are really nice people, but they ask a lot of questions. Now on the other hand, there are Kyle’s two aunts, Lilith and Marie, one uncle Brian, and his annoying cousins David and Matt, both in the early years of high school = immature assholes. Uncle Brian is pretty funny, but he smokes and drinks more than enough, and he totally looks like the type who goes to the strip club…twice a day. As for Auntie Lilith and Marie? Well they were nice at first, and then they got nosy and kinda weird so I was more than a little grateful when Gramma and Grampa Havens insisted that we stayed at their house instead of Auntie Marie’s. *whew*

So it’s 1:41am and I’m still up. Kyle’s sleeping beside me in my bed right now, but thankfully, he doesn’t snore…loudly. Sorry to say that there is a bit of angst to this entry, so here goes...

What the hell am I doing in San Gabriel in a bed with Kyle Havens, who I thought I was completely done with, visiting his relatives?!?

Okay for those who are confused, here’s the lowdown: I dated Kyle before and we hit it off, but then things happened, and he ended up ignoring me and basically stopped being my friend for almost 5 months before approaching me again, then ignoring me again, and so on and so forth, until I finally confronted him about it and I told him to just forget it if he keeps doing that cause really? It’s not cool at all. But about maybe less than two weeks ago, he approached me again, said a lotta stuff, and asked me to go out with him again.

Granted, I said no the first few times, but then I eventually said yes, and in a very short amount of time, it was like those 6 months of silence hadn’t happened, and we were back to normal. I never could hold a grudge…softhearted…pathetic, really. Then he asks me to accompany him on this trip and what do I do? Don’t think about anything else and just said yes. Stupid stupid stupid!

So here I am, still wondering what the hell is wrong with me. But then again, I have feelings for Kyle that I haven’t had for a really long time and I guess it’s just easier to be able to fill up that gap. But what happens in two months when he goes to college? I’m just gonna be alone again, so why am I letting myself pursue something that is, excuse the cliché, but doomed to fail?

Wow I do have a motherload of questions for…well, I guess myself. But instead of blowing it all out awkwardly for everyone to read on lj, I’m thinking some sleep would do me some good…and some coffee in the morning…and of course, that ever-so-refreshing morning breath from Kyle’s mouth. But I have to admit, even though things are going really crappy right now for my emotional psyche, this trip is making me feel a lot better, and Kyle is really trying this time. So I guess I should just go with the flow and let things happen, huh.

AH PRISON BREAK! crazy nasty T-Bag leering and having that evil eye to his ex....though that was pretty mean, that lady betraying him like that....but yeah, he IS a murderer. was it just me, or was it REALLY creepy the way T-Bag smiles? ewwwww....even if it is genuine *shudders* HOT MICHAEL! GO LINCOLN! wow, that's crazy....sara being an ex-druggie, not so surprising. bellick hitting on sara? another shudder. I KNEW ABOUT THE TEETH THING! YEY! THANK YOU THE WHOLE NINE YARDS! lol, that's crazy. i still think VP is still a bitch

24! aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "the vice president has nothing to do with this" *shoot to old wrinkly hands holding a phone or something i don't remember* and in my head all i could think was "OHCRAPOHCRAPOHCRAPOHCRAPOHCRAP IT'S LOGAN IT'S LOGAN IT'S LOGAN IT'S LOGAN!" aaaaaah! still crazy...he tricked us all! why does he have to look so clueless and stupid? lol. aw man, though there were smarter ppl knowing about it before me........how do you do that? you're watching tv but at the same time figuring everything out in your head without seeing the end? crazy. i can't do that. it's a skill i must acquire.

hm, anyways....i hate rain. it's been raining for like, the whole month of march and now april? come on! darn it all. i have to wear boots everyday and it's hurting me since my sneakers get soaked through so easily. hm. boo. holy chocolate starfish!

WHAT A BITCH! I FORGOT WHO THE STUPID LADY IS! come on jacky, help me out here, the evil blonde bitch in Prison Break......what's her position again? ARGH! watching prison break just made me angry and sad and angry some more and now i'm a mix between angry and anxious for next week's episode. but STILL!

YOU KNOW WHO ELSE IS A *BEEPING* *BEEP* *BEEP*?! THAT'S RIGHT, THAT STUPID FAT COP GUY I FORGOT HIS NAME TOO! I'M JUST SO MAD! yeah jacky, come on, i need some more help. starts with a B, got shit against Michael (he's probably jealous cause michael is friggin sexy). yeah yeah, this is me ranting cause i just want to BLOW THAT EVIL BITCH LADY'S HEAD OFF, SCRATCH HER EYES OUT, SKIN HER ALIVE, CHOP OFF HER LEGS AND ARMS, AND FEED HER DEAD CORPSE TO THE CROWS, THEN BURNING IT AND RE-BURNING IT OVER AND OVER UNTIL THERE'S ABSOLUTELY NOTHING LEFT, NOT EVEN A SPECK OF *BEEPING* DUST! ARGH!

jacky, you HAVE to share my anger! this episode?! it was KILLER! joy, eugenie, even you del (even though you're probably not gonna read this), have GOT to watch Prison Break, it's like, MANDATORY! argh, i really wonder how they're gonna get lincoln out of this one.....HE BETTER NOT FRIGGIN DIE. well, okay, i know he won't, cause then there'd be no more prison break. but STILL! COME ON MONDAY, HURRY THE HELL UP! omg.....it's only monday.....dammit.....i thought it was wednesday. pft, fine then. COME ON PRISON BREAK!

oh yes, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand WATCH SUPERNATURAL TOO!

Del, this is so for you, since you're a livejournal virgin! haha. get a friggin account if you're gonna read my crap so i can read your crap too! and you better say something or this will all be for practically nothing!

Questionnarie (Delanie's)
Last cigarette: never

Last car ride: like an hour or so ago

Last good cry: Umm...can't remember

Last library book checked out: hah! you're funny...i hardly even go to the library

Last movie seen: Exorcism of Emily Rose at kyle's last night!

Last beverage drank: some quality H20

Last food consumed: chocolate chip cookie

Last crush: haha, the 19 year-old guy at Pac Sun

Last phone call: Alex King

Last time showered: Last night

Last shoes worn: flip flops, even if it is like, 30 degrees F

Last items bought: that belt from Pac Sun

Last disappointment: stupid someone who didn't call me back when they said they were going to

Last shirt worn: black button-up shirt

Last website: www.fanfiction.net (shut up, del)

Last word/s you said: son of a bitch

Last song you sang: Save Me- Remy Zero

What color socks are you wearing? none

What's under your bed? some kleenex boxes and a suitcase

What time did you wake up today? 8-ish

_FUTURE_
Who do you want to live with?: myself....

What is your career going to be?: with a little luck, a cop, and not the uniformed Metro PD, thanks very much

Where are you going to live? Not exactly sure, somewhere in a city, i guess

How many kids do you want? none

What kind of car(s): 1. an old classic car, right now, i'm in love with a very sexy-looking black 67' Chevy Imapla (kudos to Supernatural to finding a hot car like that) 2. a truck 3. SUV

_CURRENT_

Current mood: Happy/Tired

Current music: Dear Angel- April Sixth

Current taste: pepperminty...chewing gum at the moment.

Current hair: let down straight

Current clothes: jeans, button-up shirt...no need to get into more details, right?

Current annoyance(s): Waiting for someone to call me back.

Current desktop picture: one of those random windows one

Current book: Great Gatsby


(x) - you've done

(x) been drunk
( ) been high
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex (in my defense, i was not in favor it)
( ) crashed a friend's car
(x) been to Japan (airport)
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped
( ) been fired or laid off
(x) been in a fist fight (she didn't hit me back though...so i don't think it's a fight, for like an attack, lol)
( ) snuck out of my parent's house
(x) had someone sneek in
( ) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
( ) ever dated someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
( ) stole something from my job
( ) celebrated new years in times square
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) had a crush on a teacher (a young student teacher, haha, mr. zealand in your spanish class)
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
(x) skipped school
( ) cut yourself on purpose
(x) been married in crew terms
(x) gotten divorced in crew terms
( ) had children
(x) seen someone die
( ) been to Africa
(x) Punched a friend (not in the face)
(x) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire.
(x) Eaten Sushi
(x) Been Snowboarding
( ) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) Been moshing at a concert
( ) been in an abusive relationship
( ) been pregnant or got someone pregnant
( ) lost a child
( ) gone to college
( ) graduated college
(x) taken painkillers
(x) miss someone right now

UNIQUE --
1. Nervous Habits?: i get hot, maybe sweat a little, but i don't turn red, oddly enough

2. Are you double jointed?: i don't even know what that means

3. Can you roll your tongue?: in what way?

4. Can you raise one eyebrow at a time?: that's what i do all the time

5. Can you blow spit bubble?: heck yeah! lol

6. Can you cross your eyes?: Of course.

7. Tattoos?: Not yet.

8. Piercings and where?: none.....ew..

9. Do you make your bed daily?: not on weekdays, haha

-- CLOTHES --
10. Which shoe goes on first?: right

11. Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone?: haha, yeah.

12. On the average, how much money do you carry in your wallet?: $0-10

13. What jewelry do you wear 24/7?: black rubber bracelet....geez, i haven't taken it off in weeks, if not months

14. Favorite piece of clothing?: james' norcal hoodie, it's so damn comfortable and i'm obsessed with the smell! haha

- FOOD --
15. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?: Twirl

16. Have you ever eaten Spam?: yeah, a looooong time ago

17. Favorite ice cream flavor?: it's a tie between mint chocolate chip and cookie dough!

18. How many kinds cereal are in your cabinet?: 1

19. What's your favorite beverage?: Soy chai latte from starbucks or water

20. What's your favorite restaurant?: i dunno, anywhere clean....sanitary

21. Do you cook? yeah, but not if anyone else is cooking

-- GROOMING --

22. How often do you brush your teeth?: At least 2 times a day.

23. Hair drying method?: blow dry until it's half dry, then i just let it air dry

24. Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair/what color?: yep, red, but now it's a weird color

-- MANNERS --
25. Do you swear?: hell yeah, can't stop myself

26. Do you ever spit?: no....ew, even the sound repulses me


-- WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE --
27. Animal?: cute small ones that won't scratch or bite me

28. Food?: italian, pizza (that's italian, right?), Panda Express

29. Month?: don't have one

30. Day?: fridays and saturdays

31. Favorite Cartoon Character? Shoe Brand?: none

33. Subject in school?: english

34. Colors?: blue, green, white, black, yellow (not to wear, though), dark gray

35. Sport?: water polo, football, hockey

36. TV show?: SUPERNATURAL, GILMORE GIRLS, 24, Smallville (but i just wish lana would DIE), some scifi shows, one tree hill (to see lucas die), CSI, and a whole LOT more.

37. What's your sleeping position?: uh....i move around a lot, but usually either on my right side or on my stomach

38. Even in hot weather do you use a blanket?: haha, yeah

39. Do you snore?: my parents tell me i do occasionally, but not loudly

40. Do you talk in your sleep?: sometimes, but again, not loudly

41. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?: no, haha, but i do have my deformed blankie

42. How about with the light on?: no

43. Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on?: I oftentimes have my cd player on, but I usually don't
leave my tv on unless I fall asleep without knowing it.


T or F, rarely, sometimes, occasionally

you cook your own dinner: only if my parents don't

you do your own chores: true

your parents still give you money for things: true, can't get a job

you're gay: False.

you walk around barefoot indoors most of the time: True, or socks sometimes

you got laid today: False

you like beef jerky: False

your 1st car was new: False, don't own one myself

you own more than one brush: True

your favorite color is red: False.

you plan on never going to college: Defintely FALSE.

you're completely broke right now: True

everyone compliments you on your clothes: Sometimes

you're happy with your hair: Sometimes...lol

you own a dog: false...too much work

you spend your money wisely: HAH! rarely

you're always making new friends: true

you like to swim: well.....it's just become a habit, but i don't like it or dislike it

you get bored so u take a shower: False

you're patient: True....unless it's a crappy day


GAWD THAT TOOK FOREVER! haha, i'd be surprised if any of you lasted this long! I LOVE Y'ALL!

I feel so giddy right now it's not even funny......well, maybe a bit. But i totally got hit on yesterday! haha, ok, here's the story, and excuse me if i can't type in chunks cause i just don't flow that way....well. Anyhow, so here's the story:

So me and my pal Laura ditched after lunch to go to the mall and look for prom dresses and eat and stuff like that. After eating, we went to Pac Sun to look at clothes and really beautiful leather belts! and then there was the guy working there......and holy chocolate starfish, was he GORGEOUS! i personally hardly ever use that word, but my friend agreed and just drilled it into my head.

MOVING ON! so we walk in, and he's all big smiles and greets us enthusiastically, and i'm just there smiling so hard cause he was just SO hot but really dorky too, like, adorable dorky though, and you just see that he's one of those super outgoing guys.

and then when my friend was paying for her hippy-looking wallet, he just started talking to us and i couldn't help myself and i kept talking back and adding things like i was a friggin motor mouth...or like i was competing with him to see how long we could throw remarks back at each other. and he laughs and i'm just like, omg i'm hot......as in temperature-wise!

Then he was like, 'so is this your last stop?' and i was like, 'no, actually this is our first stop' and then he said, 'aw, too bad, i thought we could go get something to eat, i'm off in a few' (lol, i swear, direct quotes here) and i dunno if he was joking or not, but then i'm like, 'well we just ate, but maybe next time' and he's like, 'yeah, i'm here everyday until 3.' and i was so totally really hot, and i'm just telling myself to keep my cool until i get out of the store, haha.

and laura is just standing there all grinning and i'm trying not to slap that smug look off her face, heehee, just kidding.....sorta. and then he says 'i guess i'll see you soon then' and then i'm like, 'if you remember me' while we're walking out, and he's like 'i never forget a mouth like that' LOL, and i guess he was talking about how i wouldn't stop talking, but then we walked out, and i was like, sweating! literally! and laura was just cackling at me, and i'm just trying to walk away quickly.

that was seriously like, the very FIRST time i have EVER done something like that! i mean, chatting up some 19 or 20 year old guy?! that's just, even over for me! but i was laughing about it, i just have the entire dialogue stuck in my head like i can't get it out! but an hour or so later, i'd already forgotten what that guy looks like....haha, like, his entire face...i only remember that he was gorgeous, and he had blonde hair (short, thank god), and blue eyes... laura told me i was flirting, but i didn't even know! i just said whatever came to my head! after running through the conversation like, a dozen times, i was just like 'I FLIRTED I FLIRTED I FLIRTED!' totally freaking out and stuff, haha.

but that's not really the weird thing! today, me and laura ditched after lunch again, and we went to the mall again, but i didn't wanna go to Pac Sun cause since he's there (name was Geoffrey, by the by, read his nametag) and i didn't wanna seem all stalker-ish. and when we were driving out (still in the parking lot), this guy is just riding or whatever you call it, on a skateboard, and he looks at us before he crosses in front of us, and laura was just yelling 'OMG IT'S HIM! IT'S THE GORGEOUS GUY!' and you know what, IT WAS! haha, ON A SKATEBOARD! heehee, just made us laugh and laugh cause he was trying to look all cool and stuff or he was trying something, but he kept almost slipping before we turned and drove away

i wanted to follow him, lol, but we were already way gone, and turning back would REALLY be stalkerish. obviously, he didn't really see us cause he was just glancing at us to see if we were gonna hit him when he went in front of us. isn't that crazy, though? it's like, WHAT ARE THE CHANCES?! INSANE! then we came to the conclusion that he must go to DVC the community college which is near there. but it was just crazy! haha! i'm totally serious and it really happened and i was laughing SO hard!

ANYHOW! now that that's over and done with........OMG JARED PADALECKI AND JENSEN ACKLES ARE SO HOT! wheeeee! i'm so gonna divert my energy to more work now *sigh* haha, WHOOP!

whoa....WHOA! i totally love Drew Lachey! did any of you catch that cowboy dance thing he was doing on Dancing with the Stars? cause if you didn't, you totally missed like, the coolest dance EVER! AH! makes me wanna get up and dance! lol, it was just waaaay too cool! the screaming was so loud even through the tv it was cool...haha. his partner, Cheryl, dang she has a really sculpted back! she always wears backless dresses, and that's totally understandable! i mean, if i had her back, which i obviously do, i'd wear backless dresses too! heehee! whoa, i think i just realized what the theme of our next school assembly should be! heehee!

OH! VOTE FOR DREW AND CHERYL!!! i don't care if you didn't see it! VOTE FOR THEM at abc.com!!!! you MUST!!!! I NEED THEM TO WIN!!! THEY TOTALLY DESERVE IT! HOLY CRAP! VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE! WHOOP! GO DREW GO DREW GO DREW GO DREW GO DREW! YEEEEEAH! ok, i'm done, haha, VOTE FOR DREW! GAH!

So i'm BORED! No more water polo! No more waking up too damn early, getting my fix (of caffeine, mind you), going to practice with some weird hyped-up-probably-crack-smoking-or-jamba-juice-obsessed girls. of course, i'm talking about the preppy ones, haha.

I'm getting so lazy again! Not doing homework, ditching class, etc etc etc. But i guess the good thing is my mood is definitely improving from the weekly visits to the psych. i've got one more session left, and then i'm done done over with it. Though i know i'll sure be sad to see him go. i mean, how many chances...free chances are you gonna get spilling your guts to someone who would actually listen and not judge you? probably not so many times. this psych is pretty cool though, i mean, we even hung out together for the past two saturdays. he even paid for my lunch this time and he paid for my coffee last time. haha, taking advantage of the shrink...niiice vivian, very nice. nah, i'm just kidding, it's not my fault he's new to the state with few friends and a brother with a need to be shown around so he doesn't get lost and get stuck in some weird place. yeah, that's right, i know stuff about my psych too! hah! i'm gooooood.

anyways....wow, i'm really just blabbering here! that's good that's great that's just swell!

and the homework continues to pile...stupid winter sports assembly planning...i mean, who cares, the assemblies always suck anyway! stupid other leadership people suck at planning their stupid games! they're always so lame and short! argh! and stupid ppl don't get that when you stand under the huge-ass speakers up on the ceiling, THERE WILL BE FEEDBACK FROM YOUR FRIGGIN MICROPHONES! i can't stress that enough! and then they act all surprised like no one told them a MILLION times when it happens and they don't even move away either for another like, good 5 seconds. i'm always tempted to throw something at them.

Holy chocolate starfish....is it just me, or does the return of Prison Break sound not all that exciting anymore? i mean, i've even lost the squeal factor for 24 AND the heart-pumping thrill of the IDEA of watching Lost! WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?!?!?! granted, i still watch them all, but it just doesn't seem all the "mind-blowing" anymore. but i admit, i am now FIRMLY latched onto Supernatural and Gilmore Girls! haha, WB shows! whoop! those are like, the only two shows i will, with each passing day, be excited to see. Man this is a problem....it's never happened before....i need to fix it. COME BACK GOOD SHOWS! COME BAAAAAAAAAACK!

anyhow....Kyle is really sucking some, and now Kayla is too. i had NO idea, but apparently they got something going on there...or at least, they will maybe, though there is some tension, that i know. i mean, i found out that kyle initially wanted to take kayla to homecoming (that explains a lot). whatever, but kyle is still an inconsiderate ass, but at least he's making an effort to talk to me again and oh. my. god. he ACTUALLY called me! pfft! well he can just go crawl into a deep, dark hole because i totally ignored it. i mean, he didn't even have the decency to leave me a message! text, or otherwise! stupid guys....he really was just good for looking at. haha, wow, i can't believe i actually said that. GO ME!

oooooookay i guess i'm done here, can't think of anymore to say, but......SUPERNATURAL ROCKS! has GREAT eye candy...for me, anyway. SO DOES GILMORE GIRLS! great fast talking ranting there! ACTUALLY SO DOES DANCING WITH THE STARS! haha, it's great to see Drew Lachey dance each and every week, lol. WHOO!

i love y'all! that's right! that's what i said!

HEY! boy am i glad to be alive!

what kind of a random opening statement is that? well i'll tell you. okay, that was lame, but whatever.

so yesterday, me and my friend, Gerardo, got into a car accident! no joke, in all seriousness.

he was driving me home from school, and then he was driving over the speed limit, and when he was like, approaching my street, he wasn't slowing down, so i was like, calmly pointing to my street (on the right) and i was like "uh, you kinda missed my street again" and i was GONNA say, "you can drop me off on the next stop", but he just suddenly braked and turned sharply even though i think we both knew he wouldn't make it. so the car went up the curb and slammed into the tree. air bags popped out and there was smoke on the inside, and i lost my glasses, and crazy stuff.

and gerardo was just like, immediately going into reverse and like, drove off the street and onto my driveway area. i just jumped out of the car, got my bag, and opened the gate for him to get into the apartment parking area. i had to get my bag outta there because he wasn't supposed to be driving me at all. like, cause here, if you're under 18, and you just got your drivers license, you have to wait 6 months (one year now) before you can drive anyone else around. so i had to pretend i wasn't in the car and stuff, which was pretty easy since neither of us were bleeding or anything like that.

so yeah, and then he just got out of the car, and i was like, taking him inside my house, and he was totally shaking and freaked out and going into shock. and after he laid down, he went into the fetal position and started hyperventilating and shaking like crazy and i was just sitting there while other adult people called gerardo's dad and stuff. and i don't know, but it bothers me that i didn't have much of a reaction to everything. i mean, i was just sitting with him for half an hour holding his hand while he kept shaking until his dad came, and gerardo wouldn't respond to anyone, and that was the only thing that freaked me out.

and then the firemen came to try to snap gerardo out of it, and the paramedics came and took him to the hospital, and a cop lady came and i had to lie to ALL of them saying that i wasn't in the car at all. and i wasn't even nervous when i was lying and talking to them, i just felt so detached and it was just so weird. but yeah, i told them i was walking home from school when i heard the noise and saw my friend's car in a tree. anyway, he's totally fine now, but obviously didn't come to school.

my glasses were pretty screwed up, and i tried to fix it, but it didn't work, so i had to tell my parents that i got hit with a basketball in the face. it worked, and now they're fixed.......but they're making me dizzy cause my glasses were messed up before, but now they're normal.

but anyway, we both have total whiplash, like, i can't even move my neck down to look at the ground, and my back hurts, i've got a total seatbelt bruise (not very dark, but you can see it) from my shoulder to my chest, i'm dead tired, and i'm going through that nasty time of month for girls. i am SO NOT looking forward to my appointment with young psych-man tomorrow........gawd, he's probably gonna ask my stupid questions like, "and what were you thinking when you slammed into a tree?"

i wonder if i should tell him that i was actually IN the car when he crashed.......doctor-patient confidentiality, right? i guess i will....he will be the only adult to know that i was in a car crash....except for my chemistry sub....now THAT was random.

but it all felt so surreal......it feels like it never even happened to me and i'm not sure if it's a good thing or a bad thing cause i can't even begin to rate how serious this was. like, i don't know if this was a big thing or a small thing, so i don't even know if i should be freaking out or something. but everything happened so fast like, it was like, i don't even remember hearing anything when we smashed into the tree. i'm sure it was really loud, but i don't even remember hearing it.

anyway, if you've read it this far, i applaud you. eh, i need to shower, have a good weekend!

since my internet isn't working all that well, i can't go on MSN yet, which is why i'm typing it here so...yeah...sorry for the delay joyce! lol, i know, i was supposed to type up a report for you first thing in the morning after my first date with kyle! haha, but yeah, i'll explain.

SO...okay, on friday night, at like, 5pm, i went to my friend, laura's house, and we played hide and seek around her neighborhood, haha. but i scratched my boots! stupid! cause i was crawling around the ground and stuff! argh, i got so mad! then kyle came to pick me up at like, 7pm and we went to san francisco to eat at this restaurant called I Luv Teriyaki and Sushi. lol. not very fancy, obviously.

the food was great, but what sucked about dinner was that a bunch of school friends were there too. and since they didn't know that we were out on a date, they kept staring at us at first, but then two of them came over and just started talking to us and wouldn't stop. and me and kyle were just so bored cause they were actually talking to each other more than us anyway.

so the dinner was pretty much a bust. we left at around 9-ish 10-ish pm and went to get starbucks, lol, and went to the beach. from there, it got better, we talked, went crazy, and i sat on trash, and kyle sat on glass. that's pretty much it. oh, and i got home at like, 12am, and my dad got so pissed, haha, but you know what, it was worth it. it was really cold though...like. really REALLY REALLY cold. totally freezing. i was freezing even with my furry sweater! haha, but i was kept warm, lol.

that's pretty much all that happened...gah! watching 24 now, it's so good! wheeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

ok ok, so it's a tad late to talk about last friday, but i can't stop thinking about it so i've just got to share it! it was just amazing! so we had a final football game, where our school's Varsity Boys Football team played against the other team, Miramonte High School, and it was a championship game, so it was EXTRA EXTRA important.

so me, treigh, and corrine went and it was just so amazingly fun! even though it was totally freezing, we all got hypothermia, pretty much, and we sat right beside the marching band, so by the end, we were totally deaf...stupid mario kept playing and playing...but it was motivating. and me and corrine were screaming and cheering and cursing at the other team and cheering some more, jumping, waving our arms like crazy ppl, just shouting random names. a few teachers went too, and unfortunately, they now constantly tease me at how worked up i can get.

anywho, the whole game was recorded and broadcasted on TV!!!! wheeeee!!! but it was only on like, digital cable, which i didn't have, so i didn't get a chance to see myself if they put me on it boooooooo....cause kyle was doing a small interview with them at the end, and i was trapped in his arm, so he dragged me right to the camera...so embarrassing..the idiot! but anyway, haha, Miramonte's cheerleaders totally sucked! our cheerleaders were SOOOO much better, all they did was shake their butts. *gag*

but WE TOTALLY WON!!!! 20-17, with 0 seconds left, Bijan (the kicker), failed to make the field goal on the first try, but we got another chance after Miramonte got a penalty. and guess what? BIJAN TOTALLY MADE THE FIELD GOAL! everyone was just like, up off their feet screaming like a crazy person, and you know what? i think we were!

some 100% nerdy-looking dude was dancing the entire night, and it was like, soooo....*shudders* he was totally scrawny and ew....and when we won, he took off his shirt and was waving it around, and everyone was just like ohhhhh myyyyyyy goooodddddddd....EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!! lol, but i just ignored him, and like half of the crowd, ran straight to the field to congratulate the team and stuff! it was insane!

i was so shocked when i saw Kyle though, he was literally crying his eyes out! his eyes were all red and teary and he was just shaking so bad, when i hugged him, i thought he was gonna start bawling! it was so sad, i guess he was such a wreck first off because it's his last football game in high school...for all the senior guys as well! garry was barely holding it in, poor guy, he's the Captain, by the way. and Coach Ivankovich? his voice cracked! never thought i'd hear it, but i heard it! everyone was just hugging all the guys and the coach, some ppl were even crying, lol, i hugged guys i didn't even really know! but they were all sweaty and bulky with all their gear on. but it was a time i wouldn't forget.

lol, garrett picked me up and swung me around in a bear hug, and i was so freaked out cause he came from behind...he was really ecstatic, he probably bet some money on the game, haha. but i really love these guys, and they're leaving! :( The day they all leave for university will be the day i bawl my eyes out. lol.

after the boys did one last team chant, they headed to the locker room, which wasn't really necessary since none of them changed out of their uniformas, neither did the cheerleaders, and we were still in our YV sweaters. Then all the boys, their girlfriends, some cheerleaders (senior chicks), and me, keyla, garrett, and aaron went to Appleby's for a celebration dinner, haha, at almost 11pm! Coach I joined us and paid a few workers extra to keep feed us overtime. wheee. but of course, he didn't pay for our dinner, haha, he's not THAT rich.

blah blah blah, we all left at around 1am, my parents were so pissed (but i called them before and told them i'd be staying at whitney's house for the night...which i didn't). then me, keyla, aaron, garrett, and kyle went to aaron's humongous house since none of us really wanted to go home and rented 'mr. & mrs. smith', which none of us really watched since we fell asleep before the middle of the movie, haha.

kyle was so mean the next morning, splashing water in me and keyla's faces to wake us up...wasn't very nice to wake up wet. booooo, so glad i got the water-proof makeup...but it was still running out already after 24 hours, hee hee. anyway, got home at around 11am, parents still pissed, especially my dad, cause he THINKS i'm going out with someone when i'm NOT! argh. but still. funny note, kyle still didn't take off his gear when we had left. i was surprised when he didn't gear up today!

whew, that was long! =p oh! the team was in the paper too! well, a few papers! but here's the best one online, have a peek:

http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?file=/chronicle/archive/2005/12/03/SPygnaciovalley03.DTL

my IE is sooo messed up now. so you guys know the cookies stuff in the computer right? like, the Temporary Internet Files folder in the Local Settings folder? about the stuff in there, am i supposed to delete them all occasionally? cause i do, and now my IE is totally messed up. like, i have to keep refreshing to see the new stuff. like if i post a comment on LJ (for example), and press the "Post Comment" it goes back to the same page, but then i have to press Refresh to see the new post! it's so annoying! aaah! WHAT'S GOING ON?!?!?!?

aw shucks, practicing by doing yoga in the morning is so not good for our team, lol. it's not even fair, but our coach decided that for the entire week, we were only gonna have morning practices cause he was going to focus on the "special training" with the football guys after school. but we learned a new pose today, near the end of class where nearly half of us broke our bones. it's so funny the instructor lady says it's called, and i quote, "Eka Pada Rajakapotasana". hahahaha, seriously, me and emily even asked her how to spell it at the end. but in english, it's called the "One-Legged King Pigeon Pose". heeheeehee, so funny. it was funny when we did it too cause no one could follow her instructions and i ended up looking like a pretzel promptly before collapsing on my side. supposed to puff my chest huh? i think i broke my back, lol.

but there's like, nothing on TV this week! Prison Break is sadly over now, Gilmore Girls is going to be on repeat, Supernatural wasn't on, NOTHING NEW! why?! until next week...so sad.

wow, my parents are totally paranoid. after finding out that i get driven home after school by my friends, they've totally gotten suspiscious, thinking that i have a boyfriend or something. lol. but NO. my mom saw kyle today when he drove me home from school (EARLY DAY! YEY) and ditched football practice, and he needed to use the bathroom, so he came in and my mom saw him and gave me the weirdest look. i totally think my parents think i'm a loner or something. geeeeeeeeez. and after hugging him good bye, i swear my mom almost looked apalled! it looked like she thought i was making out with him instead of hugging! oi. psychos! and THAT my friends, is how i'm going to end this entry. ta ta!

(i get it, jackY)

Sooooooooooooooooo sad! The grief i feel is too big for words. I CAN'T BELIEVE PRISON BREAK IS GOING ON HIATUS! why is stupid FOX doing this to us? why can't they play it until January when 24 comes back then push it up to 8pm? that would be the BEST lineup EVER in the history of all TV shows. Wouldn't you agree Jackie? ooooh, i can just imagine it now....*drools* Wentworth Miller....Keifer Sutherland....oh man, that'd be great. Two whole hours of awe, shock, and adrenaline..and sometimes heart attacks. lol.

last night's prison break was insane though! MICHAEL WAS CRYING! i was crying too! well, at the end, anyway, when he was like, "they replaced the pipe" or something like that, and then he and lincoln and sucre were just trying so damn hard to break the pipe, but obviously, since it's new, it wouldn't have given way anyhow. but still, i thought michael was gonna cry when he couldn't break the pipe! and then there were tears...hahahha. can't believe stupid veronica didn't take the envelope from the other guy before the evil guy came to shoot him. HE KILLED THE GOOD GUY! oh the horror. i totally wanna kill them. and the guy lincoln "killed" is still alive! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG! i was like, uh...... but yeah.

and Michael cried! that shocked me....not really, but i just didn't think he would have tears in his eyes..i thought it'd be like, fake crying without the tears kinda thing...but it wasn't! he had tears! AHH! so sad...Joy, eugenie, you guys should TOTALLY watch Prison Break...well, haha, you can't anymore, but you should've! or you can download it or something, haha. it's almost as good as 24!

oh haha, and Wentworth Miller was on Jay Leno last week, but it replayed last night...well, this morning...almost 3am, and i actually stayed up to watch it! lol, i thought he was gonna be on for a while, but it was only for like, 8 minutes...totally pissed me off. some old guy was on before that...but i did my hwk! heehee

but i wasn't tired today! (well NOW i am) okay, fine, i was during first period, but that was only because stupid mrs. roberts moved our seats and now i sit next to a wall surrounded by a bunch of non-talking guys with some annoying white kid who won't stop tapping his pen...and Alex just out of reach behind me...*sob* evil.

it was cold today...very cold...stupid english teacher really hates me...she won't stop glaring at me..or picking on me! i hate her...stupid witch...won't even pick me to read out loud in class. *sniffs* anyways...wow, just caught a glimpse at the show "The Biggest Loser" and i must say...wow....that's insane! they really are REALLY fit now! like, one of the guys looks really hot now! lol, amazing what a hair cut can do, lol.

ok, i'm so done, it was mainly cause i wanted to talk to well, jackie about prison break. lol. so you better reply!